Key takeaway from My Recent Conversations 1

We met different friends during different phases of life. I am glad that I am keeping in contact with a few friends. 

She’s my best friend. I knew her since my secondary school. She is working as a partially certified pharmacist now (Pardon me for those technical terms hahaha). We would share to each other about our progress in our career. 

A story that she shared and had left me a deep impact was a case she has seen in the hospital she is working at. A mother was driving on the highway with her 12 years’ old son. The journey to her destination could be very long and the mother fall asleep. Then, I don’t really know what her car has hit into, but an accident happened to her car. She and her son can’t escape from injuries. Her bones of her both legs are fractured. On the other hand, her son went into coma because they found minor of bloods were bleeding out from his brain. He was also having epilepsy quite occasionally because his nerve impulses were badly disrupted.  

She witnessed the mother’s condition after the mother had finished her surgery. Two iron rod (size of a ball point pen) were used to support her feet. Opps, it sounds so painful to me even I am not there to see the whole picture. She also updated about the son. It was a good news: He has woke up. To be honest, I don’t know is this really considered a good news, because he has to wake up to see the things that have happened to his mom. 

Before this, I have read some news about car accidents too. The one who survived after the accidents, they really suffered in pain, not just from the physical side but from the mental as well.  

Drive safely is upmost important! If you’re tired, please take a good rest at any R&R station. Don’t force yourself to drive. Your destination is not moving anywhere and it can wait for you. Please be a responsible driver. 

Ok, bye.

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Others’ Reactions toward Signing Up for Training Program

As my previous post, I went for my full body assessment. I haven't really tell what are the responses from my friends after knowing that I signed up for fitness training program. 

Most of them are curious about the price they charged. I only screenshotted those who asked me through Instagram. 

I told them the truth. The price ain’t a small number, especially for fresh graduate like us. I tried my best to bargain the price but it seems like the quotation they gave is the best offer. They don’t really bind me to any contract like forcing me to subscribe for a year something like that. In the end, it’s depending on how fast I have fully mastered all the lessons and how feasible that I can do my workout at any gym independently. Let’s say I managed to hit my goal within 3 months, then I just need to pay for those 3 months (even though I know it is impossible.) Considering another factor - Avoiding taking advantage of anyone. Their standard deserve a good price. I won’t say I finally ‘compromise’ to accept the deal, I would rather say I TRUST them. 

After I explained all these to my friends, some of them started to suggest me other methods instead like you can follow those workout in the apps or just control your diet sort of advices. They might thought what I have done was majorly due to another rush. Regardless, I really appreciate those friends for giving their sincere opinion. Everyone see things in different ways. They are caring about my financial aspect. These are true friends when they see something is like a red flag and they are dare enough to talk to me even the final decision maker is still me. This takes a lot of courage because they are not really sure whether their opinion might piss me off (mostly won’t lah hahaha). 

Some of my friends expressed how they feel when they know the price. Mostly, they are not really troubled because their curiosity was fulfilled hahaha. Some of them encouraged me and sent me some positive feedbacks. Thanks. I really like the vibe that you guys had given. To be honest, after I paid the fees, I lost my appetite for dinner on that day. Some of them called me through the phone and had some sweet talks with me. I’m really touched and hopefully those supports can be converted to energies for my upcoming trainings. 

Then, I also encountered some friends who interrogated me about my intention to lose weights. I think some people have misconception towards fitness training. It doesn’t just help in shaping your body but it also teaches you a better way to improve your health. Having a good body shape is not mainly used for attracting others, it allows people to have more confidence in whatever they do (You know, girls are creatures who like buying new clothes, having their photos to be taken nicely. The prerequisite for me to enjoy these activities is a good body shape). I feel like his mindset is kind of disrespectful to women, ‘ladies who are working out in the gym is to catch men’s attentions.’ I’m not really offended, but I just feel pity for his future girlfriend hahaha. (The gf, you better don’t workout, later he will think you are trying to cheat. If you have any health issues, just let it be. He can afford your high amounts of medical fees, no worries. Or, he will replace you to another lady.) 

I don’t want to comment much on this anymore. I have made my stand clear enough. I hope that everyone are able to do whatever they want in their life and left no regrets. You thought you always have enough time and you can wait, and Covid-19 had taught us a good lesson. 

Ok, bye.

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Day 1 - Full Body Assessment

Hi. It's me again, on the same day. 

I recorded a video before I depart to the training center - explaning how tired I was (right after work) and I went to Giant Hypermarket to grab some track bottoms and how careless I was to left my anti-perspirant there after I paid its price. I was forced to buy a new pair of anti-perspirant which doesn't smell good as the one I left. There is nothing worth to be shared actually hahaha but who cares. 

Back to the real topic, this is the first time I ever feel my yoga mat is useful hahahaha. I even took a picture of my yoga mat for the first time. 

I went there (training center) and I apologised in advance because I worried I could be late due to the traffic jam (Oh, I did?). I was asked to tell about my current lifestyle and I was being 200% honest. My lifestyle is extremely terrible! I don't exercise much (I just swam for single time since last week which is still considered very less hahaha). My profession is an engineer and we have plenty of chairs in my company. (There is no reason for me to not sitting down when I do my works. )Thanks God that I am still alive. 

After reporting everything, he measured my blood pressure. My blood pressure was roughly 130/90 (which is higher than a normal people T^T). This is due to lack of sleep, according to what he told me. Then, the interesting part is about my body fat. I was expecting that it could be 20-30%, but who knows my actual body fat's percentage is 40%+ (I can't recall the exact figure, just simply give the worst-case number here, 49%).  Muscle mass is like roughly 20%. My super duper ugly's picture were taken by him with a specificed angle (I thought they simply take photo but they actually set a fixed distance with black tape on the ground to make sure your 'before & after' pictures look legit). He told me that the background board was used to check my posture or body ratio. This explained my doubts - why the background board has so many grids instead of just having a few horizontal lines to tell my height. 

The hard truth - my left upper shoulder is slightly higher than my right upper shoulder (due to using computer too much, now I know why my grandpa always nag me if he saw me playing my laptop). My most favourite part would be the time when he examines my movement. Now, I only discovered I'm the unchosen one, I have a pair of flexible flat feet T^T. My first reaction was 'Shit, I am having a body's defect. I can forsee that I am going to be very miserable when I turn old. '. The consultation trainer is nice enough to tell me that it is quite common and it won't be a big issue if I handle my exercise correctly (Phew, hopefully). 

I screwed up most of my 'freeweight body exercise' (pardon me for naming those exercise with wrong terms hahaha). I didn't practice pumping and 'raising your butt' exercise properly. This is the result of following workout videos blindly in your entire life. 

In overall, I felt super lucky that I have pushed myself out of comfort zone that earlier. I can't imagine what if I do this 10 years later. I don't know who is my personal trainer yet. Perhaps I won't disappoint him/her too much. 

Ok, bye.

Update: How could I miss that part when I misunderstood what the consultation trainer (Let's use the abreviation 'CT')  was trying to say. He assigned two homeworks for me. 

CT: First one, drink soy milk. 

(Oh gosh, seriously? Where to get the soy milk at this hour? Soy milk has a lot of benefits? ) 

Me: Sorry? Soy milk?

CT: Drink 'ENOUGH' water. 

Mandarin's pronounciation could be very confusing and mixed up with other phrases.

Me: Ok, ok. 

Second homework: Sleep early (Look what I am doing now hahaha. It's 12.30 am) 

Ok, bye.  

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Do something that you won't regret.

I remember I was very active on Blogger when I was in my Form 4 back then. I can write all day long until I don't sleep at all. I still can remember how passionate I was even though most of my words won't be seen and my voice won't be heard by others. 

After I started my college's life, I quitted blogging because my time were fully occupied by other stuffs. Those stuffs can be either entertaining or meaningless. I am not sure whether it's appropriate to label it as 'meaningless' because it gave me sense of joyful when I am doing it. Happily wasting time is considered meaningful, I guess. No lies, I really like to daydream a lot. In that imaginary's world, I don't have any burden and I can create my own short stories and relive my life for a thousand times.  

Time flies, and you might thought that you have changed, but not for me. Something rooted in me will never change. I still enjoy whatever I enjoyed in the past, especially sharing whatever shit I like regardless how people react at it.  There are still a bundle of things I tried so hard but I still can't make it successfully. It sounds so stupid like a loser struggling so hard to make things work but she still end up with failure. Did I ever feel shameful on myself or blame myself for not being hardworking or determined enough? Maybe sometime. Most of the time, I am so proud of myself that I still give it a try despite of so many failed attempts. 

Just like now, I'm back to writing again even though my English sucks hahaha. I don't really know how did I survive in my career when English is the primary language. Pity my colleagues to tolerate my poor English for most of the time. This is the first post, I don't want to force myself pouring everything out. I just want to let myself know:  "I can always do anything I wanted so badly, I can conquer the fear. I don't want to envy others and regret that those could be me."

"Tiffany, don't be fake lah. Your mood swing is so terrible. You are showing that you are damn motivated and possibly you could change the world on the next second. In fact, you're the one who would post "I don't want to live anymore...I want to die" that kind of stories on Instagram, anticipating people show kindnesss to you. "

This is how my two voices fight in my head. In the end, I'm just a human. 

I'm done with the thinking time. I am so excited to announce that I am going to own another (this) blog again and I will record my career and fitness (more likely to be losing weight/fat's) journey. Hopefully, I can learn as much as possible and bring a little positive impact to the people surrounding me or anyone who happened to be able to read my future posts. 

Ok, bye.

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